Rain. What is it about rain that feels so liberating?
There´s something about running in it that makes it feel as if your troubles have been washed clean right off of you. Perhaps, for me, it´s a reminder of burden free days when I was a mere child. That is when I developed a love for the rain afterall. The sound of thunder and the sight of lightning tearing the skies apart was always so appealing.
Many times, I found myself walking alone, soaked to the bone. Thoughts running rampant in my mind. But always the constant beat of the rain showers calmed me. Even now, as I sit here smoking yet another cigerette, watching the waves of rain. An inner calmness has found it´s way into me. For this brief moment, I am sane. For this brief moment I am me. Suddenly, my thoughts make more sense. I realize that as bad as things are right now, it doesn´t help to sulk. Sure, it can be depressing, infuriating even. BUT SHIT HAPPENS. Then life goes on. It always does, with you or without you. Might aswell enjoy the ride.
Friday, August 26, 2011
Broken Pieces
Struggling,
Through the filth my life has become.
Tired, Oh so tired.
Desperate for a breath of fresh air,
A tiny hint of who I was before,
A reason to smile...
A reason to go on.
Broken pieces,
That is all that remains.
Broken pieces, and nothing more.
Chasing a memory,
Vague like smoke.
An endless pursuit of what once was mine.
If only I could catch it.
Snatch it! Right out of the air,
Then, and only then,
I know I could shed this rotting flesh,
Emerging as what I was really meant to be.
As who I long to be.
But instead,
I watch.
As my hopes and dreams are broken.
Plummeting to the floor,
Like dying butterflies.
Desperately, foolishly fluttering,
On the ground.
Until they´re smashed,
Beneath someone´s foot.
The color in their wings,
Trickling away,
Like blood from an open wound.
Life has carved it´s lessons,
Into my skin.
Scarring me.
Leaving traces.
So that I shall not soon forget,
Happiness comes with a price.
Or so I´ve been taught.
So, why fight against the current?
Let it´s icy dagger pierce my soul,
Once again.
Let it swallow me.
Imprison me.
In my lonely cell.
In my solitude,
To which I am so accustomed to by now.
Let me be lost.
The echo of a ghost.
For I am the only one who insists,
On fixing what is broken...
Broken pieces.
That is all that remains.
Broken pieces, and nothing more.
Through the filth my life has become.
Tired, Oh so tired.
Desperate for a breath of fresh air,
A tiny hint of who I was before,
A reason to smile...
A reason to go on.
Broken pieces,
That is all that remains.
Broken pieces, and nothing more.
Chasing a memory,
Vague like smoke.
An endless pursuit of what once was mine.
If only I could catch it.
Snatch it! Right out of the air,
Then, and only then,
I know I could shed this rotting flesh,
Emerging as what I was really meant to be.
As who I long to be.
But instead,
I watch.
As my hopes and dreams are broken.
Plummeting to the floor,
Like dying butterflies.
Desperately, foolishly fluttering,
On the ground.
Until they´re smashed,
Beneath someone´s foot.
The color in their wings,
Trickling away,
Like blood from an open wound.
Life has carved it´s lessons,
Into my skin.
Scarring me.
Leaving traces.
So that I shall not soon forget,
Happiness comes with a price.
Or so I´ve been taught.
So, why fight against the current?
Let it´s icy dagger pierce my soul,
Once again.
Let it swallow me.
Imprison me.
In my lonely cell.
In my solitude,
To which I am so accustomed to by now.
Let me be lost.
The echo of a ghost.
For I am the only one who insists,
On fixing what is broken...
Broken pieces.
That is all that remains.
Broken pieces, and nothing more.
Warped And Twisted
Harsh words and violent blows
Hidden secrets nobody knows
Eyes are open, hands are fisted
Deep inside I'm warped and twisted
So many tricks and so many lies
Too many whens and too many whys
Nobody's special, nobody's gifted
I'm just me, warped and twisted
Sleeping awake, choking on a dream
Listening loudly to a silent scream
Call my mind, the number's not listed
Lost in someone so warped and twisted
On my knees, alive but dead
Look at the agony that I've bled
I'm not gone, my mind has drifted
Don't expect much, I'm warped and twisted
Burnt out, wasted, empty, and hollow
Today's just yesterday's tomorrow
The sun died out, the ashes sifted
and all that I am is warped and twisted
Hidden secrets nobody knows
Eyes are open, hands are fisted
Deep inside I'm warped and twisted
So many tricks and so many lies
Too many whens and too many whys
Nobody's special, nobody's gifted
I'm just me, warped and twisted
Sleeping awake, choking on a dream
Listening loudly to a silent scream
Call my mind, the number's not listed
Lost in someone so warped and twisted
On my knees, alive but dead
Look at the agony that I've bled
I'm not gone, my mind has drifted
Don't expect much, I'm warped and twisted
Burnt out, wasted, empty, and hollow
Today's just yesterday's tomorrow
The sun died out, the ashes sifted
and all that I am is warped and twisted
Dear God
Everytime I come up to breath I sink deeper then before,
And just when my heart is healed, life will shatter me once more,
Havn't I had it bad enough? Must you kick me while im down?
Must you insist on doing nothing as you watch me drown?
My life has been an endless struggle, one I've lost the will to fight,
I'm so tempted to close my eyes and drift away into endless night,
Why can't I ever have happiness? Why must all my days be grey?
What sin have I commited? Why must MY soul decay?
My wings lay torn and broken, why can't I just be free?
Why must I suffer tell me! For no reason can I see!
Why do others have it so easy? Why must I endure?
What makes them so different? Was I not just as pure?
I have reached the end, where everything looks black,
I have lost my way, and I fear there is no coming back.
And just when my heart is healed, life will shatter me once more,
Havn't I had it bad enough? Must you kick me while im down?
Must you insist on doing nothing as you watch me drown?
My life has been an endless struggle, one I've lost the will to fight,
I'm so tempted to close my eyes and drift away into endless night,
Why can't I ever have happiness? Why must all my days be grey?
What sin have I commited? Why must MY soul decay?
My wings lay torn and broken, why can't I just be free?
Why must I suffer tell me! For no reason can I see!
Why do others have it so easy? Why must I endure?
What makes them so different? Was I not just as pure?
I have reached the end, where everything looks black,
I have lost my way, and I fear there is no coming back.
Love
Love is a confusing thing it clouds the mind and ensnares the heart,
From the begining it takes over it slowly tears you apart,
Seducing your better judgement in its subtle yet lethal way,
Killing you slowly as it poisons your soul day by day,
It leeches itself upon you until its all that you know,
And once it grabs ahold of you its next to impossible to let go.
And as addictive as it is, like an intoxicating drug so sweet,
Like a smiling stranger you just cant help but greet,
That you never suspect it can do what it can do,
Yes you've heard the stories but that cant happen to you,
So you give yourself over and accept it with open arms,
You've been bought, seduced, by its tricks and its charms.
And just when you think you have it all everything falls apart,
And you realize nothing hurts as much as a wounded heart.
So you're left alone to wallow in your shame,
and with a broken heart you realize,
Nothing....
Will ever again be the same.
From the begining it takes over it slowly tears you apart,
Seducing your better judgement in its subtle yet lethal way,
Killing you slowly as it poisons your soul day by day,
It leeches itself upon you until its all that you know,
And once it grabs ahold of you its next to impossible to let go.
And as addictive as it is, like an intoxicating drug so sweet,
Like a smiling stranger you just cant help but greet,
That you never suspect it can do what it can do,
Yes you've heard the stories but that cant happen to you,
So you give yourself over and accept it with open arms,
You've been bought, seduced, by its tricks and its charms.
And just when you think you have it all everything falls apart,
And you realize nothing hurts as much as a wounded heart.
So you're left alone to wallow in your shame,
and with a broken heart you realize,
Nothing....
Will ever again be the same.
Sitting In The Rain
Sitting in the rain, thinking of you,
Chilled to the bone frozen all through.
The rain keeps pouring, my heart keeps breaking,
The world gives grief, and I keep taking.
Cant tell the difference between my tears and the rain.
Soaked with the showers and soaked in my pain.
The skies grow darker, the wind grows colder,
And this meloncholy tune grows older.
Lightning flashes and the clouds rumble,
As deeper into this depression I tumble.
For I don't have you, my lover, my friend.
Without you it seems this rain will never end.
Behind the clouds the sun will hide,
Everyday that you're not by my side.
All that is left is the bitter cold,
And lonliness as each day unfolds.
It hasn't stopped raining since that distant day,
When we kissed goodbye and each went our own way.
I'm so lost without your love I don't know what to do,
Other than sit in the rain.... And think of you.
Chilled to the bone frozen all through.
The rain keeps pouring, my heart keeps breaking,
The world gives grief, and I keep taking.
Cant tell the difference between my tears and the rain.
Soaked with the showers and soaked in my pain.
The skies grow darker, the wind grows colder,
And this meloncholy tune grows older.
Lightning flashes and the clouds rumble,
As deeper into this depression I tumble.
For I don't have you, my lover, my friend.
Without you it seems this rain will never end.
Behind the clouds the sun will hide,
Everyday that you're not by my side.
All that is left is the bitter cold,
And lonliness as each day unfolds.
It hasn't stopped raining since that distant day,
When we kissed goodbye and each went our own way.
I'm so lost without your love I don't know what to do,
Other than sit in the rain.... And think of you.
When Is The Right Time To Say I Love You?
When is the right time to say I love you?
When I have you in my arms?
When I'm seduced by all your charms?
When I kiss your soft full lips?
When I hold you from the hips?
When is the right time to say I love you?
When we're gazing into eachothers eyes?
When we hear each other's sighs?
When we hold each other's hands?
When no words are uttered, yet we understand?
When is the right time to say I love you?
When we lay together in bed?
When you're all that's in my head?
When we make love all night long?
When we know nothing can go wrong?
When is the right time to say I love you?
Now, Later, Tommorrow, Past!
My love for you will always last!!!
You are special in all you do!
And now is the right time to say...
I LOVE YOU!!!
When I have you in my arms?
When I'm seduced by all your charms?
When I kiss your soft full lips?
When I hold you from the hips?
When is the right time to say I love you?
When we're gazing into eachothers eyes?
When we hear each other's sighs?
When we hold each other's hands?
When no words are uttered, yet we understand?
When is the right time to say I love you?
When we lay together in bed?
When you're all that's in my head?
When we make love all night long?
When we know nothing can go wrong?
When is the right time to say I love you?
Now, Later, Tommorrow, Past!
My love for you will always last!!!
You are special in all you do!
And now is the right time to say...
I LOVE YOU!!!
Master´s Hands
Music box tinkles her marionette song,
Porcelian doll strings pull her along,
Each moment controlled and precise,
A plan like clockwork she will device,
Her master's hands tighten their grip,
Cord sliced fingertips,
Baring flesh and bone,
Tugging her back to where no daylight shone,
Lifeless, in her box she waits,
To dance her escape,
Bling Ting-A-Ling Bling...
The music begins,
Will she be forgiven her sins?
Echoes of the music box plays,
Triumphant she sways,
Blood splattered walls,
No more strings for this porcelian doll.
Porcelian doll strings pull her along,
Each moment controlled and precise,
A plan like clockwork she will device,
Her master's hands tighten their grip,
Cord sliced fingertips,
Baring flesh and bone,
Tugging her back to where no daylight shone,
Lifeless, in her box she waits,
To dance her escape,
Bling Ting-A-Ling Bling...
The music begins,
Will she be forgiven her sins?
Echoes of the music box plays,
Triumphant she sways,
Blood splattered walls,
No more strings for this porcelian doll.
Final Step
The flame still flickers within your eyes...
Tarnished hands have made you cry...
Strength is yours...
Walk out that door...
Yes, lonliness will try to get in your way...
Only the fear can hurt you, when you stay...
Know a better life is ahead...
Loving arms will hold you instead...
A flame still flickers within your eyes...
Now is the time, to abandon all lies.
Tarnished hands have made you cry...
Strength is yours...
Walk out that door...
Yes, lonliness will try to get in your way...
Only the fear can hurt you, when you stay...
Know a better life is ahead...
Loving arms will hold you instead...
A flame still flickers within your eyes...
Now is the time, to abandon all lies.
Sleepless Night
It's well past twelve as I lay awake
Laying motionless, staring at the cieling
How many more troubled nights can I take
My heartache has left me numb beyond feeling
Happiness is nothing but a lie
Only tempting you with what will never be
I havn't the strength left to cry
How can you act so ruthless with me
Why did I think I could trust you with my heart
When all you did was break it, like many before
How did I not see the signs from the start
What a fool I was, to think that you could give me more
I contiplate what it was I must have done wrong
As I sulk in sadness, and drown in regret
I'll be tormented with these thoughts all night long
let me ease the nerves with another ciggerette
But alas, the smell of the smoke reminds me of you
And the monster that devours hope awakes
Pain is all I have left now, it's true
As more is cultivated the more my heart breaks
With no choice other then to watch as you walk away
To watch you leave with the best of me
Walking out on all our dreams, hatched that distant day
Broken dreams now, scattered like debris
Tick, tick, tick, the clock disapproves as the hours pass
Hours I spend wandering, lost in the memory of you
For thoughts of you linger, jagged broken glass
My blood is my price, and I will pay my due
Let this end, god please let this end! I have had enough
The sun's first auburn rays, burning bright, spill in from outside
Sleepless night, followed by a restless day, life can be rough
And so starts another agonizing day, I must endure without you by my side.
Laying motionless, staring at the cieling
How many more troubled nights can I take
My heartache has left me numb beyond feeling
Happiness is nothing but a lie
Only tempting you with what will never be
I havn't the strength left to cry
How can you act so ruthless with me
Why did I think I could trust you with my heart
When all you did was break it, like many before
How did I not see the signs from the start
What a fool I was, to think that you could give me more
I contiplate what it was I must have done wrong
As I sulk in sadness, and drown in regret
I'll be tormented with these thoughts all night long
let me ease the nerves with another ciggerette
But alas, the smell of the smoke reminds me of you
And the monster that devours hope awakes
Pain is all I have left now, it's true
As more is cultivated the more my heart breaks
With no choice other then to watch as you walk away
To watch you leave with the best of me
Walking out on all our dreams, hatched that distant day
Broken dreams now, scattered like debris
Tick, tick, tick, the clock disapproves as the hours pass
Hours I spend wandering, lost in the memory of you
For thoughts of you linger, jagged broken glass
My blood is my price, and I will pay my due
Let this end, god please let this end! I have had enough
The sun's first auburn rays, burning bright, spill in from outside
Sleepless night, followed by a restless day, life can be rough
And so starts another agonizing day, I must endure without you by my side.
Adios
Si ya no me quieres, no me lastimes,
No vez que puedo volver a caer,
Sabes de sobra que eres mi vida,
Pero no es justo que deba perder,
Cuando recuerdo tus tiernas palabras,
Me cuesta trabajo llegar a creer
Que me has enganado.
Haciendome a un lado.
No digas mentiras, No quiero saber...
AY!!! Amor anda dilo de una vez,
No temas no es delito
Si me haz dejado de querer...
Mi dolor no lo puedo evitar
Es mejor un fin a tiempo, Aunque duela la verdad.
No vez que puedo volver a caer,
Sabes de sobra que eres mi vida,
Pero no es justo que deba perder,
Cuando recuerdo tus tiernas palabras,
Me cuesta trabajo llegar a creer
Que me has enganado.
Haciendome a un lado.
No digas mentiras, No quiero saber...
AY!!! Amor anda dilo de una vez,
No temas no es delito
Si me haz dejado de querer...
Mi dolor no lo puedo evitar
Es mejor un fin a tiempo, Aunque duela la verdad.
Alone
It's becoming harder to breathe with each passing day,
My world is closing in and yet I stay,
Where can I run to, where can I hide,
When this agony attacks from inside?
I am alone.
I live my life hiding beneath a mask,
What is it I'm hiding you might ask,
The scars that life has left on me,
The scars I'm too ashamed to let you see.
I am alone.
Further and further into this black abyss I fall,
No one listens to me when I call,
What's the point of even trying,
If I know I'm slowly dying?
I am alone.
The flame I once possesed in my heart,
No longer burns for I've come apart,
With no love to call my own,
I feel the coldness to the bone.
I am alone.
Consumed by indifference and by fear,
I'll finally cry my final tear,
And as this pointless life draws to an end,
I'll share this with you, my only friend;
We are alone...
My world is closing in and yet I stay,
Where can I run to, where can I hide,
When this agony attacks from inside?
I am alone.
I live my life hiding beneath a mask,
What is it I'm hiding you might ask,
The scars that life has left on me,
The scars I'm too ashamed to let you see.
I am alone.
Further and further into this black abyss I fall,
No one listens to me when I call,
What's the point of even trying,
If I know I'm slowly dying?
I am alone.
The flame I once possesed in my heart,
No longer burns for I've come apart,
With no love to call my own,
I feel the coldness to the bone.
I am alone.
Consumed by indifference and by fear,
I'll finally cry my final tear,
And as this pointless life draws to an end,
I'll share this with you, my only friend;
We are alone...
Lost
No way out, no way out
All these eyes filled with doubt
All these problems chasing me
I just want to scream and shout!
Broken will, broken will
These are shoes too big to fill
Why can't I just be free?
Why do I feel empty still?
Spoken lie, spoken lie
And yet I continue to try
I'm slowly fading can't you see?
The world has abandoned me to die.
Took a chance, took a chance
Lost myself within the trance
The only option left for me
Was to learn the morbid song and dance.
I've lost hope, I've lost hope
There is no way with which to cope
Let this world swallow me
I'll just become one more knot on this rope.
All these eyes filled with doubt
All these problems chasing me
I just want to scream and shout!
Broken will, broken will
These are shoes too big to fill
Why can't I just be free?
Why do I feel empty still?
Spoken lie, spoken lie
And yet I continue to try
I'm slowly fading can't you see?
The world has abandoned me to die.
Took a chance, took a chance
Lost myself within the trance
The only option left for me
Was to learn the morbid song and dance.
I've lost hope, I've lost hope
There is no way with which to cope
Let this world swallow me
I'll just become one more knot on this rope.
A Journal Entry
My original plans for tonight were to go to bed early, get some sleep for a change. Obviously, that didn't happen. That's the internet for you, a poison so sweet it's victims smile as they pass away. Even now, my eyes burn from the screen's glare. But, I can't seem to pry myself away. The time on the task bar screaming for me to shut my laptop off and go to bed. Fuck you time! When have you ever stopped for me?
I light another ciggerette, the glowing end a drunken firefly stuck in the darkness that surrounds me. I never did care much for light. Then again why would I? It's so much easier to stay unnoticed in the dark. I laugh as I recall how I swore I'd cut back on the ciggerettes, even if ever so slightly. But the craving is too strong, there's no use locking that little monster away. Ribbons of smoke dance across the screen, and I think to myself, I'm here at home curled up on the couch, while HE is out downing drinks and probably talking to some random guy. A random guy standing where I should be, drinking MY beer, smoking MY ciggerettes... Talking with MY... Ugh... take a deep drag. Much better.
What's the point of getting worked up? I'm the one that is going to get stuck putting out the fire. The fire, that no matter how hard I try, I always manage to miss one tiny ember. It lays there waiting, fueled by our problems, growing. But, I never let it grow too big. I always dowse it with my denial.
"Everything is just fine" I tell myself.
"He would never do that to you." More denial.
The sad thing is I realize it now, and yet there it remains. Whatever happened to the times when everything was so easy? When problems were fixed for you? When your heart was never broken? Everything nowadays is a battle. A battle to the death. You can't let your guard down for one second without someone ripping your heart out of you. Take it. It's in such bad condition anyways. All the ducttape in the world couldn't fix that piece of shit if they tried. All it does is get me in trouble.
The comforting silence is shattered with my cell phone screaming for attention. Great, whose calling me now? I reluctantly stand up, still wrapped in a blanket. Staggering,I make my way over to the table, littered with newspapers. A picture of Sergio flashing on my cell's screen.
Ignore.
It would be wonderful if you could just press the ignore button on life. But it doesn't come with one, just my luck. Even the snooze button on my alarm clock is jammed. So that means I won't be able to ignore "Our" problems. Which have become more and more lately. I would think they must fuck more then rabbits do, the way they spring out of nowhere. And always when you least expect it.
Why does it have to be this way? Did the author really neglect to write in a happy ending when he wrote my life? Silly of me, to think I would deserve one. Now I know happy endings, atleast in my case, are unfinished stories.
My life is a big game of Jenga... I stacked all the blocks, and everyday someone will pull one out. It sways this way and that way, always managing to regain it's balance. But the weight of things is straining the bottom blocks (not to mention my shoulders). The obvious is going to happen. My life, what remains of it, is going to give out and crash down. Blocks flying everywhere! Game over.
And you don't help one bit. Selfish. If I didn't love you so much, I would hate you right now. But luckily for you, it doesn't work that way. I can't hate you and love you at the same time. But, I can wait.
You have to admit our love is not what it used to be. Who are you kidding? Ofcourse it isn't. I can see it in your eyes. But there isn't a reason to start pointing fingers. It wouldn't change the fact that you and I are drifting apart. Not only does this cause my heart pain, but my head aswell. All these thoughts have caused me a headache. Love hurts, I never thought they meant that literally. You proved me wrong.
Still, I hope you make it home safely, hopefully alone. It's too early to make any decisions, so for the mean time I'll have to write about it. Perhaps seeing it here, will help me make my decision. Perhaps you seeing it here, will help you realize your error.
I light another ciggerette, the glowing end a drunken firefly stuck in the darkness that surrounds me. I never did care much for light. Then again why would I? It's so much easier to stay unnoticed in the dark. I laugh as I recall how I swore I'd cut back on the ciggerettes, even if ever so slightly. But the craving is too strong, there's no use locking that little monster away. Ribbons of smoke dance across the screen, and I think to myself, I'm here at home curled up on the couch, while HE is out downing drinks and probably talking to some random guy. A random guy standing where I should be, drinking MY beer, smoking MY ciggerettes... Talking with MY... Ugh... take a deep drag. Much better.
What's the point of getting worked up? I'm the one that is going to get stuck putting out the fire. The fire, that no matter how hard I try, I always manage to miss one tiny ember. It lays there waiting, fueled by our problems, growing. But, I never let it grow too big. I always dowse it with my denial.
"Everything is just fine" I tell myself.
"He would never do that to you." More denial.
The sad thing is I realize it now, and yet there it remains. Whatever happened to the times when everything was so easy? When problems were fixed for you? When your heart was never broken? Everything nowadays is a battle. A battle to the death. You can't let your guard down for one second without someone ripping your heart out of you. Take it. It's in such bad condition anyways. All the ducttape in the world couldn't fix that piece of shit if they tried. All it does is get me in trouble.
The comforting silence is shattered with my cell phone screaming for attention. Great, whose calling me now? I reluctantly stand up, still wrapped in a blanket. Staggering,I make my way over to the table, littered with newspapers. A picture of Sergio flashing on my cell's screen.
Ignore.
It would be wonderful if you could just press the ignore button on life. But it doesn't come with one, just my luck. Even the snooze button on my alarm clock is jammed. So that means I won't be able to ignore "Our" problems. Which have become more and more lately. I would think they must fuck more then rabbits do, the way they spring out of nowhere. And always when you least expect it.
Why does it have to be this way? Did the author really neglect to write in a happy ending when he wrote my life? Silly of me, to think I would deserve one. Now I know happy endings, atleast in my case, are unfinished stories.
My life is a big game of Jenga... I stacked all the blocks, and everyday someone will pull one out. It sways this way and that way, always managing to regain it's balance. But the weight of things is straining the bottom blocks (not to mention my shoulders). The obvious is going to happen. My life, what remains of it, is going to give out and crash down. Blocks flying everywhere! Game over.
And you don't help one bit. Selfish. If I didn't love you so much, I would hate you right now. But luckily for you, it doesn't work that way. I can't hate you and love you at the same time. But, I can wait.
You have to admit our love is not what it used to be. Who are you kidding? Ofcourse it isn't. I can see it in your eyes. But there isn't a reason to start pointing fingers. It wouldn't change the fact that you and I are drifting apart. Not only does this cause my heart pain, but my head aswell. All these thoughts have caused me a headache. Love hurts, I never thought they meant that literally. You proved me wrong.
Still, I hope you make it home safely, hopefully alone. It's too early to make any decisions, so for the mean time I'll have to write about it. Perhaps seeing it here, will help me make my decision. Perhaps you seeing it here, will help you realize your error.
Whisper In The Dark
Laying here next to you, I feel so complete,
My head resting on your chest, hearing your heart beat,
Wrapped in your arms there is nothing left to fear,
I've never known true happiness like being here,
Whisper in the dark and tell me what you feel,
Whisper in the dark for only that will make it real.
Laying here next to you, running my fingers through your hair,
Knowing that this moment only you and I will share,
With our bodies intertwined, I give you a kiss,
A night that lasts forever, A suspended moment of perfect bliss,
Whisper in the dark, And tell me you're mine forever,
Whisper in the dark, and tell me you'll leave me never.
Laying here next to you, is the time I like the best,
When it's only you and me and we can forget all the rest,
Fate has given me a love, a love that will be true,
And finally has rewarded me by joining me with you,
Whisper in the dark, before you fall asleep,
Whisper in the dark, words I can always keep.
Laying here next to you, I am so in love,
You are my blessing, just like the stars above,
You bring a joy to my heart I've never felt before,
With each touch of your hand, I love you more and more,
I whisper in the dark, "Thank you for loving me"
I whisper in the dark, "Goodnight my love, forever yours I will be!"
My head resting on your chest, hearing your heart beat,
Wrapped in your arms there is nothing left to fear,
I've never known true happiness like being here,
Whisper in the dark and tell me what you feel,
Whisper in the dark for only that will make it real.
Laying here next to you, running my fingers through your hair,
Knowing that this moment only you and I will share,
With our bodies intertwined, I give you a kiss,
A night that lasts forever, A suspended moment of perfect bliss,
Whisper in the dark, And tell me you're mine forever,
Whisper in the dark, and tell me you'll leave me never.
Laying here next to you, is the time I like the best,
When it's only you and me and we can forget all the rest,
Fate has given me a love, a love that will be true,
And finally has rewarded me by joining me with you,
Whisper in the dark, before you fall asleep,
Whisper in the dark, words I can always keep.
Laying here next to you, I am so in love,
You are my blessing, just like the stars above,
You bring a joy to my heart I've never felt before,
With each touch of your hand, I love you more and more,
I whisper in the dark, "Thank you for loving me"
I whisper in the dark, "Goodnight my love, forever yours I will be!"
A Sad Existance
In it's cage is trapped the bird
It's cries for freedom seldom heard
A witness to the world outside
In plain view nowhere to hide
It'll never fly though it has wings
A sad existance and yet it sings
Longing to one day be free
Dreaming of the things it see
Behind the bars it views the skies
And every day more of it dies
Living sorrow that each day brings
A sad existance and yet it sings
These four walls are all it'll ever know
Stuck here forever, no place to go
With no choice but to wait and sit
And waste away bit by bit
Wanting a different life and different things
A sad existance and yet it sings
It spreads it's wings to no avail
For there is no way it can prevail
Lonliness it's only friend
Up until the very end
Realizing it will never soar
Until finally one day, it sings no more
It's cries for freedom seldom heard
A witness to the world outside
In plain view nowhere to hide
It'll never fly though it has wings
A sad existance and yet it sings
Longing to one day be free
Dreaming of the things it see
Behind the bars it views the skies
And every day more of it dies
Living sorrow that each day brings
A sad existance and yet it sings
These four walls are all it'll ever know
Stuck here forever, no place to go
With no choice but to wait and sit
And waste away bit by bit
Wanting a different life and different things
A sad existance and yet it sings
It spreads it's wings to no avail
For there is no way it can prevail
Lonliness it's only friend
Up until the very end
Realizing it will never soar
Until finally one day, it sings no more
Into This Desolation
I find myself wandering, wondering,
Lost in some form of thought,
This wasteland of my life
sprawls ahead and behind me,
And I cannot make it better;
I'm not even sure if I want to.
What would it matter?
I'm doomed to walk this world
as the living disease that creates only tragedy,
I hurt all that I touch,
I burn through everything
that might be precious to me,
I devour each heart that tries to show love,
And I move on,
As if I'm untouched by all this.
But, deep down... I am dying, piece by piece.
Lost in this desolate world I have made for myself.
I wish it was different,
And that I could be something more,
But in the end,
We can only do what we were made to do.
And I was created to destroy.
And so, I destroy
Lost in some form of thought,
This wasteland of my life
sprawls ahead and behind me,
And I cannot make it better;
I'm not even sure if I want to.
What would it matter?
I'm doomed to walk this world
as the living disease that creates only tragedy,
I hurt all that I touch,
I burn through everything
that might be precious to me,
I devour each heart that tries to show love,
And I move on,
As if I'm untouched by all this.
But, deep down... I am dying, piece by piece.
Lost in this desolate world I have made for myself.
I wish it was different,
And that I could be something more,
But in the end,
We can only do what we were made to do.
And I was created to destroy.
And so, I destroy
A Rose´s Thorns
A sight to behold! It never fails, all will fall beneath my spell.
My crimson petals, my blood red veil, my alluring fragrance that binds aswell.
Gracefully poised, I simply wait, enchanting all that pass me by,
I know my purpose, I know my fate, As I continue to reach out towards the sky.
Come closer, come closer, heed my call, I hunger for your touch and care,
I hunger for your desire most of all, Make haste! There isn't time to spare!
Another victim coming close, another victim coming near,
Another victim wishing to drown his woes, the wonderous moment is almost here!
He takes me in his hand, his grip is tight,then the taste of blood fills my head!
He never anticipated my viscous bite. Fool! There is a reason my petals are so red.
My crimson petals, my blood red veil, my alluring fragrance that binds aswell.
Gracefully poised, I simply wait, enchanting all that pass me by,
I know my purpose, I know my fate, As I continue to reach out towards the sky.
Come closer, come closer, heed my call, I hunger for your touch and care,
I hunger for your desire most of all, Make haste! There isn't time to spare!
Another victim coming close, another victim coming near,
Another victim wishing to drown his woes, the wonderous moment is almost here!
He takes me in his hand, his grip is tight,then the taste of blood fills my head!
He never anticipated my viscous bite. Fool! There is a reason my petals are so red.
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